Should I hate Iliana for having played a criminal major role in my convictions concerning the Country Walk Babysitting Case???
Hate is an insane attribute of the worldly ego self which I have relinquished. My Spiritual Inner Self and Iliana’s Spiritual Self share oneness and love at the spiritual level of existence, which is the real world. Now that Iliana is no longer my carnal wife, she will remain being my spiritual sister for eternity. She has been in my daily prayers since 1985, when I elected to forgive her for her errors. Forgiveness is an attribute of one’s Spiritual Inner Self. I always pray for Iliana with an undiluted desire to have her reach her highest level of Spiritual Divine Consciousness. That leaves Me in the Peace of our Heavenly Father, where I elect to be. NO! I SHOULDN’T HATE. NOR ILIANA, NOR ANYONE. The ego self-thought system that is required to hate is not welcomed in the Mind of Christ, where I elect to dwell as much as I can, which is the real world to where every mind must eventually return. I much rather love Iliana, which means that I rather see Iliana as God created her. That is the real and only meaning of love, to perceive the Inner Christ Presence in everyone. I elect to bless Iliana and her loved ones with my highest thoughts. Iliana, just like you and everyone else, is also a member of the Sonship trying to survive her individual human experience as she deems proper in proportion to her capacity to love at any given time, which determines her level of consciousness. To the extent that she becomes receptive to identify herself with her real spiritual identity, we can share real oneness. Only the minds can share oneness. Not the brains of the ego worldly self. Not the bodies either.
I have vivid memories of the daily happy moments that I experienced with Iliana, not of our disagreements and of her errors. I made some errors myself. That is an unavoidable process of growing up. Notwithstanding Iliana’s age, she gave me unforgettable experiences of how a woman in love should love her man. The sexual connection and energy between us were so dense that it could have been sliced with a knife. It felt as if at the carnal level, we were made for each other. Our sexual connection was spectacular. I couldn’t have asked for more. We reached a point of acute telepathic connection that was amazing, we knew what the other was thinking. I dedicated all my sexual energies to her body. Iliana raised my understanding of the meaning of sharing oneness of both, of us as minds and of our bodies.
Well, actually, we were married for only ten months when our world together was ripped from us….. Our world of joy of peace and of love vanished before our eyes. We lost everything that we owned. Everything that could be sold was sold to pay Attorney Michael Lee Von Zamft and Attorney Jeffrey William Samek. We lost the love of our friends. We lost the good reputation that we had. Even some family members turned their backs on us. We became to be the two most hated human beings in the State of Florida. It was horrible beyond possible description. Our human rights were ignored and repeatedly violated by those public servants that had a legal duty to upheld the Constitution of the United States and of the State of Florida. And when we didn’t have anything else to be sold, the attorneys demanded $100,000.00. Subsequently, they got themselves appointed to represent us at the expense of the taxpayers. That is the judicial system of the United States. No money = No justice. Sad, but true. You know that.
In the other hand, as Iliana’s husband I made a sworn commitment to protect her to the best of my capacity during her human experience that didn’t vanish when she decided to file for divorce. I feel bound to honor that commitment to the best of my capacity. I do not hold Iliana fully responsible for her criminal conduct against me during my trial for the Country Walk Babysitting Case, as a way to obtain her release from incarceration. She was only 18 years old and acting under the fear produced by her lower worldly ego self.
The record of my statements shows that I have always affirmed that Iliana is 100% innocent of all the false charges that Janet Reno filed against her. That shows that there are no residues of animosity against her from that time when I screamed at her during my trial in objection to her false statements against me: ‘YOU ARE LYING AND GOD IS GOING TO PUNISH YOU FOR THAT!!!’. I apologize for my lack of control over my ego self’s psychological pain in reaction to Iliana’s false statements. That ego self no longer exists. I would like to know that Iliana is well. Perhaps happily married and with her own children.
I discovered many years ago that real love has no connection to sexual attraction. Only for the ego thought system having sex symbolizes making love. That belief, just as many of the other beliefs that are inherent of the ego self-thought system, is totally insane. A woman can feel herself sexually attracted to over one million men simultaneously under her ego thought system. Likewise a man. That is not love. However, we can and we should love everyone, under one of the many ways and levels that are available to us. The understanding that must be adopted is that sexual attraction is one of the attributes of the worldly ego thought system while love is an attribution of God, which we experience through the holy thoughts that we receive from our Inner Holy and Eternal Self, that God created as us.
TO BE CONTINUED.
FRANCISCO FUSTER ESCALONA.